A post to God

:) thank Allah SWT for everything (:
For make me learn from what is good or bad,
For give me a chance to always be good and better,

Bismillah...

Message to bear

Message to bear does heal me.

#self~true

Relieved

Exhale and be silent, then i'll be fine. (anger management)

#self~true

Jam berdenting

03:57
Di ruang sesak hampa udara.
Yang Mencekik dan menghabisi,
Kebahagianmu.

Tik tokk..
Pada jam yang berdenting,
Yang mengisi hampanya dini hari.
Karena cicak sudah lelah berpatroli.

Pernahkah?
Kau bersuara dalam sunyi?
menjerit dalam bisu?
Atau menangis dalam hening?

Tik tokk..
Hanya suara jam yang berdenting,
Memandangi setiap pilu yang kau kisahkan tanpa sesiapa.
Pernahkah?

Hingga dinginnya hembusan kipas pun tak kau indahkan, terlupa karena sibuk sendiri.
Sibuk mencari tau pertanyaan akan jawaban yang kau buat-buat sendiri.
Bahkan saat siaran tv menanyangkan migrasi seribu semut, masih tetap kau acuhkan.
Mengorek-orek lagi kuburan yang dulu kau tangisi.
Dan kau silet nadi sendiri, lukai diri.
Pernahkah?

Tik tokk...
Lagi-lagi jamnya berdenting,
Pastikan kau masi terjaga dan ingin segera disudahi.

Pessimistic

There is a time where i'll lose my faith and give up on everything.

#self~true

Me & superman.

Me and sad memories is like superman and krypton.

#self~true

Anomali

When everyone count their bless, im busy counting my mistakes.

#self~true

Magic spell.

There's a whimsical power from the magic spell i called it with prayer.

#self~true

The reason

Everything happened for a reason, i believe in that.

#self~true

Cherish.

I need to cherish what i had, instead of asking and blaming for more.

#self~true

The ring bell

When will my bell ring?

#self~true

Procrastination

I hate those who live in procrastination, even myself.

#self~true

Head burn.

My difficulties of showing my anger, always burned my head.

#self~true

The selling fish a.k.a selfish

I hate (selfish) people!

#self~true

Temporary anger.

If i being rude to you, it doesnt mean that i hate you. Its just a temporary anger.

#self~true

The goosfraba.

I have a worst anger management. Even goosfraba wont help.

#self~true

The beast.

Dont try to bother me, you'll see the beast side of me.

#self~true

Habit.

I used to lie of what i want or hate.

#self~true

The sucks issue.

I do pleased other people. And for certain issue, it sucks!

#self~true

The best me.

No one knows me as best as i know mine.

#self~true

Precious.

My only happiness is to see my happy family. They're precious!

#self~true

Heart broken.

It breaks my heart everytime i lie to the most important lady in my life, mom. But i keep doin that.

#self~true

Greedy.

I want to be rich and wealthy.

#self~true

Solitude.

Solitude is bliss, i agree. (tame impala)

#self~true

Happiness maker

I have a strange obsession of being a happiness~maker.

#self~true

Priority.

I put my family on the top of everything.

#self~true

My theraphyst.

My music playlist and the scent of candle are the best theraphy.

#self~true

Intimacy.

I enjoy my intimate relationship with my God.

#self~true

Karma police.

Yes, I am a person who believe in karma, And God will be the karma~police.

#self~true

Useless.

The time i waste, yes i wasted it. And i regret of thousand minutes and times i've spent for nothing.

#self~true

Society.

I never get the point of how can someone being so selfish and ignorance to other?

#self~true

Perfectionism.

It is not because i dont trust other to finished something, it simply because i never let myself to be a lazy person.

#self~true

The right thing

I hate when things are not right, according to my own definition of what's right and wrong.

#self~true

Heartbeat

I always know tat there must be something wrong with my heartbeat. But i dont think its necessary to see a doctor. So i'll just forget it.

#self~true

Oo hai

(aku bertanya):
Hai, apakabar Disana?

Inginku

Aku Mencoba...
berdiri, pada pijakan yang kau injak.
melihat, lewat kacamata yang kau pakai.
Dan merasa, dengan hati yang kau punya.

Aku ingin,
mengertimu...
selamimu...
Temukanmu...

Meski harus aku teguk dulu pahitnya.
Meski harus aku lewati dulu 4 musim.

Bolehkah?
Jika aku mau menjadimu,
Menjelma menyerupai kamu.
Agar kau jadikan aku tempat peraduanmu.

Atau bolehkah aku?
menjadi bayangmu,
Bayang-bayang setiap harimu,
Melangkah denganmu,
Dan selalu pastikan ada dalam tiap gelapmu.

Bolehkah jika aku ingin?

180 derajat

aku berdiri  di sebuah mata pusat
dengan 180 derajat rotasi,
melalui mataku,
mencoba menjadi mata mu,
mata dia,
mata mereka,
dan mata kita.

hanya saja tidak sama,
yang kudapat adalah 180 derajat pandangan,
tidak memusingkan, sama sekali tidak.
justru perlahan aku nikmati.
untuk kuputari derajat demi derajat
berputar sampai derajat 180,
dan kembali ke mata pusat

Balance

love  and   hate
happiness and tears
laugh and anger
sweet and bitter
you and me